"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

feeling like crap...
January 24, 2005 - 6:46 pm

woke up.. after drinking not a huge amount with my friend jon, but.. for whatever reason, i was wicked dehydrated and feeling "foggy".

had to go over to my brother's house and take their minivan into the dealer to get some things fixed, so i did that.. sitting in their lobby for a good 2 hours watching "i dream of genie" and "mcgyuver".. terrible.

got back here around 2 and was just.. beat. so i took a nap until 5.

on the way back from the dealer, before the nap, i was feeling.. hungry and drove past a bar a friend works at. i called her to see if they had lunch specials, but she didn't answer.. so i left a message. it now occurs to me.. that she hardly, if ever, answers when i call and i can't think of the last time see called me. she's a cool person to hang out with.. but i'm now wondering if she's really a friend or not.

being a friend is the most she could be.. as she's a lesbian.. and since we met through a common female friend, i'm curious if she's just nice to me cause she likes my friend. this bothers me.. because in a fit of weakness i confided her a variety of things that i'm now thinking perhaps i shouldn't have.

'tis a kinda complicated situation, but i felt, at the time, she'd be an ideal person to talk to.. and she seemed quite pleased (is that the right word?) to talk with me about things..

what i'd really like to do.. is sit down and talk with her.. but that's hard to do, being the busy person that she is.

oh well.. i'll worry about this when i'm feeling better.