"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

on my own
May 01, 2004 - 11:43 pm

the irony that very, very limited number of people i'd like to talk to arn't available and people i have no desire to talk are available isn't lost on me.

well, i suppose that's not really ironic, is it?

i've lost all desire to go on the trip overseas - it's now just a huge ass waste of money in my head.

no doubt a huge ass pain in the ass to..

have i ever mentioned i detest my roommate? it's not so much him, as having one.

i wish i could be in a place where i didn't have to speak to anyone or see anyone - rather like having a gate and only people i like can get past it..

or to be truly pathetic.. and use a modern, digtal metaphor..

i wish life had a 'buddy' list and i could be invisible to anyone i didn't want to see me.

then, there's the analytical side of me.. the side without emotion.

it's finding this current state of mine.. quite interesting. i don't think i've ever felt so close to edge before.

as a side note, i've lost all hope of someone offering what i'm looking for - this leaves me with the quandry of 'do i care enough totally on my own?'