"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

hair, test and where i'm at
February 19, 2004 - 8:39 pm

so, on tuesday.. i was supposed to have a finace test. as usual, the prof was late (fucker), but said due to the incoming freezing rain and his being late - the test would be a take home test (not a fucker anymore). the test should have taken an hour, it really took me and another person 5 hours (fucker) to do. i'd have failed no doubt in class.

today, we go to class to turn in the test and he's on time (miracle). he boots up his pc and starts a file on the overhead computer projector thingie.. displayed before my eyes is the first page of the test - with teh answers shown! i quickly see i got the first three right (miracle).

we, the class, waits for him to see his error, but we all check, with some correcting, answers. prof doesn't seem to notice or care. he starts to go over the test, without asking us to turn them in.

at first i'm pissed (fucker)- i busted my ass to get this thing done and now he's going to have all the answers up on the board for us to change/correct?

someone asks if we should just mark the test ourselves.. or what the deal is.

the intent was this - to go over the test.. and know what you got wrong. of course if you happened to change answers, so be it. so yes, you can mark the right answers on it.

i think he's an incredibly trusting dolt. granted, most of the questions involved lots of math, so just changing the answer won't do any good and it's not like you could have copied a whole problem.. well i suppose you could have gotten most of it.

but.. like.. i dunno. this class is fucked up.

i can't complain. my test was 100% correct when it was collected at the end of class.

anyway. i'm happy about that. though im still pissed i put in so much effort and didn't really need to. at least i know the material and i guess that's the real point.

in other news.. my sense of being 'in limbo' is reaching critical mass.

i've got a lot of ideas in the air.. a lot of semi-stated goals partially started and shit like that.

i'm waiting on replies to a few emails.. waiting to hear back from a person or two about some things.

being in limbo i'm generally ok with.. but right now i've got too much in the air.

what am i going to do this summer?

try to teach english as second language somewhere?

where am i going to live next school year?

what's up with spring break?

who wants to be counted as a friend and who doesn't?

what do i want to concentrate in my mba classes?

do i want to stay in the mba program?

should i check out the peace corp?

am i going to get into something near a decent physical shape?

the list could go on... some of these require me to get my head out of my ass and decide. some of these.. i need input from others. generally, i'd push for info, replies.. but i don't want to. i do that too much. so consider this my proding - if ya gots something to share with me, share.

i just want some order, some structure to things. the broad strokes.. the general outline. just part of who i am i guess.