"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

pondering another's diary
January 26, 2004 - 4:54 pm

quirky? perhaps that's a better word.

i'm talking about.. reading a diary of someone who is moving on - so really it's not funny at all. it's ironic what some words come to mean.. or how they can be used to describe something they don't fit at all.

anyway, part of it makes me sad - but only a small part. the much larger part of me is happy - not for the ending, but for someone coming to terms to with things.. coming to peace with things.

something things need to die - they get to tangled or whatever. fate or quirk of chance just puts a wicked spin on things and there's no way to stop it. no one wants to get off, but that's exactly what must be done.

perhaps.. after a while, after all the moving on is done there could truly be a fresh start to things, for all endings are really just the begining of something else.

diaries are just this odd snapshot into what someone is thinking - what they are thinking for the moment they write it. perhaps it's not how they come to finally feel - but for an instant made permanent it is what someone thinks.

reading her words is bittersweet, but i know it's the best for her and probably for me as well. what matters though, is that it's best for her - that atleast in the snipets of her thoughts she posts.. she seems happier, seems to be making progress and living life.

that's a damn shot more than i do these days.