"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

a factoid and equity
October 22, 2003 - 11:14 pm

so, here's a kraven factoid: every test i've taken, and i've taken several (i like to try and learn about myself), for depression ranks me as severely depressed - or whatver term they happen to use that matches severely.

to be frank, though my name's not frank, i can't imagine a day without multiple cycles driven by, to me, no apperant rhyme or reason. of course, i'd be the last person able to detect any sort of pattern.

it always, well nearly always, makes me smile when someone makes a comment that i can swing from 'night' to 'day' in the blink of an eye.

to me, it's just how i am. a part of who i am.

the concept of taking a pill to 'fix' me.. seems utterly obscene.

i'm not complaining about how i am. merely giving you a factoid heretofor hinted at.. but not said outright.

why hint at it? it strikes me as something.. that's taboo to talk about. it's not my taboo - it's societies.

if i truly want to get past such things, i need to stop following them. i do want to get past such things.

i want to live a life unfettered by all the pointless bullshit that clutters up the world. a dreamer's goal to be sure...

i long for a world dominated by equity - not equality. the concept of equality sounds delightful in theory, but in reality it's heinous. it morphs into the concept of entitlement.. and that ranks amoung the most vile concepts ever given a word by which to know it.

but, i've rambled far off topic tonight. mental babbling. i enjoy that.

right now, except for my one cold sensitive tooth, i feel good.