"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

essays are done, but i'm screwed.
January 13, 2003 - 8:29 pm

my essays are done, but i'm doubtful i'm going to have everything submitted on time. the online application thing seems to be stuck on 'processing', but i guess that's better than denied. i'm going to let it go until tomorrow morning. of course it must be submitted tomorrow, so i can print it out and fedex the hardcopy for wednesday, yes overnight.

that's all my fault for letting it go so long.

i'm doubtful i will get in anyway, they only take 200 people and my test scores arn't the best..

all of that was just little things that are bothering me.

the bigger question is what would i do once i got in? what would i do with the degree other than have a new bill to pay?

in a lot of ways getting the degree really goes against a lot of the things i think.

sometimes it really sucks not to have a dream. not to have passion.

i've just learned that anything or anyone i really want i won't get..so i refuse to let myself get to that point anymore. i think i screwed myself in this application by waiting so damn long.

that's got to say something, to mean something. waiting until the last possible moments to spit out some drivel in essays and send them money so they can tell me no.

ahh well, such is the way things go.