"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

i'm sorry
August 12, 2002 - 8:46 pm

my mood..is quite unordinary.

earlier today i watched blackhawk down. realistic war movies make me think. i feel empathy for the characters. my only frame of refernce is the movie screen and books. that's quite enough for me.

the images..the words inspire mini-stories inside my head. i go where they are, in my own way, in my head.

it's not the same i know, but close enough for me.

i afterwards i was reading dland pages and i came across yours. i tried to email you, that would have been best. i did word it nicely. i did take the time to try and be sure i was expressing myself clearly. i wasn't sure the email would go through, you don't have a link on your page for it. so i sent it to [email protected]. i hoped it would go through.

it didn't. i felt a wave..an intense desire to get my words to you. i looked at your profile and you're aol im nick is there. you were online.

i was impulsive. i was wrong. i typed a message there, not well thought out...with no idea who was at the computer.

i sent the message. you didn't see it, you ignored it. i don't know which. i'm sorry, it was wrong of me to send. i wanted to send another message to you, but that could only compound things. i've no idea if you read here.

if you do, you'll see. i'd like to think you do..and you'll see. i'm going to stick with that.

i'm sorry.