"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

off for the weekend.
May 11, 2002 - 11:06 am

i can't get my license.

it seems i can't prove i'm me. that does explain alot. i mean if i'm not me, then i probably should have a lot of the feelings/issues i have since i'm someone i'm not. it really does fit that i don't think i fit, since i'm not even me.

i'm going to be leaving soon. off to the 'rents house for the weekend/mothers day. i bought this glass figure dealie of a humming bird and a flower. i don't think she has one like it yet. well, it's so hard to say. she has so many. if she does it won't look to bad to have two of these, one on each side of the case.

i just set up all my financial crap in microsoft money. i'm confused, happily confused. it seems i'm not nearly as in debt as i thought. i'm still in debt. i'm wondering where the debt went. i check all my accounts online and if the online junk is right i'm not so bad. i'm going to make a serious effor to keep up on this money deal. i need to faithfully enter each transaction. i'm sort of annoyed that my new bank has online banking, yet i can't find the download of statements.

so many things here are just not up to the level they were in connecticut. it's really kind of odd.

take my cable access. in ct, it was just on. when my pc was on, it was on. nothing to do but pick an application and go. here, each time i start my pc they have a little connection program that needs to be turned on. i don't really mind, but it's kind of silly. i get two, yes two, icons in my system bar. one for the connection dealie, that does nothing once it's connected, and one with two little flashing computers. i want neither icon. i don't need either one. they just take up space and are useless.

my online bank deal is odd. they charge me a fee to paybills online. why? i'm saving them money since they don't have to pay someone to process the check. if i pay it online, a machine prints my check. a machine prints the envelope. a machine stamps it. atleast that's how it should be. a person shouldn't touch it. i didn't pay a fee in ct.

somethings are better that they are different than ct. like last night. i love that for ten bucks, i'm good for the night. people here are alot friendlier, well generally speaking. at my friends house, her neighbors just bring her and her hubbie beer. no reason. just cause they had a fresh case they thought they'd bring some over. it's really kind of odd.

i'm jaded.

how on earth did i get so jaded? life's mysteries seem so faded.

there's funky stuff here too. i mean memory stuff. people i'd forgotten, places i'd forgotten. it's kind of like bizarro land.

oh well. i need to pack.

oh hey..where did you go last night? you didn't say, do i need to ask?