"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

modify my personality
Feb 28, 2002 - 5:17 pm

it's even worse that everything that's made my this angry is work related. here's a brief breakdown:

1) another office we have in the city has started a pissing contest over where/how orders are booked. it's silly. we have a 'matrix' that breaks out who gets credit for what, but they've decided this does not apply to them.

2) the customer who up today i thought of as my best customer...you know the kind of person i'd do anything for, the person i'd do things i shouldn't do just cause we get along so well? i found out today that he didn't simply exaggerate a situation, he flat out lied to me in order to try and get free material. i've been in meetings upon meetings about what we should do over this situation, which he said to me was caused by my company. he admitted outright today that there is no blame to be laid at the feet of my company...in short he was in a bind and choose to lie/force us to help instead of asking for help that would have gladly been given. i'm inclinded not to do a damn thing for him now.

3) i work on projects. there's various types of projects. one type is called a registered project. this project not only gets a special price, but a protected price, meaning that no other distrubtor can touch the numbers i can offer. registrations are good. i have a project that was registered in november. today it was finally awarded. since novemeber the general pricing of the market has fallen, so we called the vendor to update the registration. the vendor is now saying we don't deserve the registration and won't move on the price.

you really didn't care about any of that, i know. each and every day...i learn that i need not to give a shit about what anyone else thinks/wants. it simply doesn't matter. if a situation, regardless what it is, doesn't make me happy...then it's my humanity given right to do what i damn well please to correct that, without even give passing thought to what that means to anyone else.

in short, i simply need to modify my personality.

other things, yes there's more. not more today that pissed me off, but a new pet peeve i feel the urge to write about.

i don't people who say they like A and then realize they really like B, but feel they can't tell people they changed their mind. i've no problem with waffling. everything looks different on a new day or after new information. excessive waffling, like changing your mind on one topic every day...or everytime your asked, that's no good. but the people that really get my going are the folks who 'think' they like A, but realize later they really like B...and then feel that since they said A they are stuck. they then lament the terrible situation they are in, bitch and moan...oh why couldn't i have said B? oh what should i do now, i don't really like A at all.

i say if you think you like A, then you say it. if you realize twenty-seven minutes later that you like B then say it. life's easier if you just speak your mind and let everyone else deal with it. it's silly to think you can't change you mind, just mean it when you say it.