"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

what i do
2001-12-23 - 10:45 pm

it makes me said that i can't. in truth i know it's not voices in my head, for there is only my own voice inside my head. i know it is not the drink, for i've drunk this spirt many times in the past. no i fear it's something more.

is fear the right word? i'm not sure i know what fright is. i feel something more of a odd, unpleasant anticipation. that's close enough to fear i suppose. i don't know enough to be rightly scared. no one knows enough. that's the blasted thing of it. there's no way to gauge how i should feel.

he's coming for me, of that there is no doubt. he comes for everyone sooner or later. the only question is when is your appointment. not that i think there's a great book kept somewhere.

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bah, i lost it. sorry, the above is the beginings...however sad and fragmented of a story. i tried to capture the moment of a story being born in my head on here. rest assured over the coming days...i'll see and play out this story in my head over and over. fine tuning this, changing that and adding details...ect. it's what i do.