"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

just..rambling.
2001-12-22 - 10:08 pm

i was sittin on the floor watchin' tv though. i didn't write it down. i said i could remember. i couldn't. i don't. just the impression of those words remain.

that says alot, atleast to me it does.

i dunno what to think anymore.

i'm like grasping at straws. there is no anchor for me. there is no straw for me to grasp, only the illusion of one. i'm starting to think that nothing outside these walls is real. that everything is a will-o-wisp. to try and catch a will-o-wisp is the very definition of futile, they can't be caught...they just lead the foolish farther and farther from home. deeper and deeper into the depths of a forest that there is no path out of out.

i want to get out. i try to get out. i want to catch a 'wisp to. i want both. i'm greedy.

see, i want what no one has the right to expect to have. i want to be happy without having to give up what i think and feel.

goddamn it. i fucking deserve it.

are you a will-o-wisp or something else? who are you? what are you? what do you want with me? i know, i know this is all in my head and you have no idea what i'm talking about.