"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

not sure
2001-12-18 - 7:20 pm

see, i realized today that i'm really not a good person. that's like a theme in my life. 'not good' could be my mantra. no matter what i do, i don't do it well. i can do alot of things compentently, but not well. i don't excell at a single thing. that's like my curse. i can hold a conversation, but, as my current lack of any relationships (friendly or otherwise) can attest, i just don't do well at relating/socializing.

i had this odd daydream at work today. i had this stamp. not just any stamp, but a magic stamp. it left a mark, a blazing red mark, on everything i slammed it on it. i think that was part of how it worked, it needed to be hit very hard on to what i wanted to mark. the mark it left was different for everything. that was kinda cool. the really cool thing about it was that the word it left was what i really thought of the item.

i didn't like too many things and since it never repeated the same word twice, it had to get very creative.

towards the end, i stammped myself on the forehead. i never did get up the courage to look in a mirror.

what day is xmass? the 24? 25? todays the 18th. i bought wrapping paper today. i still need to buy my bro and sis and niece gifts though. i did call my bro to wish him happy birthday, but he wasn't home.

anyway. like i said, i'm not sure why i post here. in fact, i'm not sure why i do alot of things.