"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

here or there...
2001-12-14 - 5:30 pm

here or there...here or there...here or there.

i don't think there's anything really left to say about there, which i guess leaves me with here. though to understand here, you need to know about there. does that make sense?

of course it does, makes perfect sense to me. so let's see. i'll start...

i decided i want the eye surgery, but i'm not getting it. i got the card out today to cancel my appointment and i said to myself, 'kraven, i don't want to cancel this.' see, today wasn't a call myself self day, but a use my proper name day. of course there is the possibity that i want the surgery only because i decided i can't do it. see, when you get your eyes all lasered up, you need an escourt to get home. you can't see so good right after the surgery. me, being the semi-recluse that i am, only know a literal handful of people and of those, only one i felt ok to ask. it's not something i'd ask just some casual person i know, but then i don't know any casual people. the poeple i know are at work, which i wouldn't ask, and her..which i can no longer ask. so i can't get home safe and so no surgery. of course it figures that i now want it.

what else is there? i didn't do a damn thing at work. i probably should have, but hell...i can be a total fuckoff there and look good.

i made this drink way to strong.

i had alot of things to say, but they are slipping..i can feel them slipping away.

it's not the drink, not it's when i sit and start to type. my mind drops into another gear and i forget things.

oh, sadly i do have an announcement to make. i must say that in the past i left things out. i have not spoken about things that i wanted to i here cause of who reads here. someone dropped the idea to me that i should, or rather possibly could, start a second diary that no one knows. i think i like this idea. i think i'm going to do that.