"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

melancholy...
2001-10-16 - 8:31 p.m.

that's not all true. i got a suprise email today. i really hate it when people just disappear from email-land. you never know if they just missed a reply or thier computer died or they died. i don't like not knowing, but at least i got an email today.

i didn't do a damn thing at work today. i really can' think of the last time i did what i said i would do.

i really a trip huh? all i do on here is bitch about how i don't like this or that or myself...and yet i have this odd expectation that you'll like me and be inspired to send me mail or something. to date, i've recieved one email off this place and a handful of people have chosen to write in my book. i think that says alot.

i broke down the other day. i decided it was time i went booze shopping. i never know what to buy, but this time i broke down and bought a bottle of canadian club whiskey. i always said i wouldn't drink the club, but there it sits on top of my fridge. it's my dad's drink, which i always thought was odd. he drinks whiskey, just one when we eat out and my mom drink scotch. shouldn't it be the other way? the man drinks the scotch and the woman drinks whiskey? i dunno, scotch and women just never seemed to mix. so now i'm one step closer to being my old man. i'll never be him though. we share a lot of traits, that's true enough...but he's far more...i'm not sure what the word is. positive? exuberant? bouyant? up beat? something like that.

i need you to work with me here. i'm scrounging for a positive....