"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." -- unknown

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - Albert Einstein

...current stuff...
2001-02-03 - 20:39:28

I went and play pool today. I like the guy at the pool hall. I go either Saturday or Sunday each weekened, around 2 to 4 or so. I go there today at 1 and he looked at me and then at the clock and said, 'Damn, your early.' It was nice. I don't have to ask for much there, I walk in and he makes a rum and coke for me. I'm not that good at pool, but I like to play. I let my mind wander and every now and then I hit a good shot. It's kinda relaxing. I was pleasantly drunk and decided to go to the mall, which is just around the corner. There's something relaxing about walking through the mall while drunk. I don't know why that is, it just is. I'm not talkin weaving, puking drunk, but to drunk to drive drunk. There's a ampitheater type deal in the middle of the mall, I sat there drinking a cappicino for awhile. I like to people watch.

I havnt spoken to Amy in quite some time now, which means I don't really speak to anyone face to face on weekends anymore. Which I find kind of relaxing, but kind of disheartening too. Just another contracdiction in my life. I don't mind being alone, but I want someone to be alone with, if that makes sense. J and I are nuttin but friends, there's to much distance and to much 'stuff' going on for there to be anything more. I've still not heard from Heather. I'm tempted to call her now and then, but I'm not sure I want to. I talk to a few people online, which are really the only friends I have. I'm pretty high on the pathetic meter arn't I?

What else is new...nothing really. I'm looking for a hobby or some sort to occupy my time. I'm pretty much off IRC. I lurk abit on dalnet, but thats it. I started a story last night, but it looks to be an 'adult' story and I dunno if i will post it here. It's half done at the moment and I rather like it.

I got to work. I pay bills. I type on here. I lurk on AOL, MSN and IRC. I don't go out much. I lead a simple life, a boring life. I'm just a boring person I guess.